On my bookshelf is a book called, ‘Three Magic Words’. This book, written in 1954 ends with the powerful three words, ‘I am God.’ I bought this book while doing my ministry training with Religious Science. I never went through with my ordination as a Religious Science minister, although getting top marks in the class on the minister’s exam. Looking back to almost three years ago, I believe it was partially due to these three words.
Raised as a Jehovah’s Witnesses where God was ‘out there’, a very male figure, with grey hair, sitting on a throne in the heavens, a God who spent his time judging and testing me, it was definitely a 180 degree turn to embrace a belief that I was god and there was no one ‘out there’.
However, after leaving the Religious Science movement and becoming a nondenominational minister, I now had to wrestle with these fundamental principles of my spirituality alone – with only my gut feeling, my intuition, my heart, soul and spirit to guide me. If I really was god, then I would know the truth – wouldn’t I?
It wasn’t as easy as I thought it would be. Removed from both opposing belief systems, I stood on middle ground for a couple of years. ‘Was I’ or ‘wasn’t I’ seemed to be the question of the day. Who did I pray to? Did I even need to pray if I was just praying to myself? Did I command and demand, or supplicate and plead?
Perhaps you have asked the same questions. Maybe you are wondering about the very nature of God which brings into question the nature of who you are. I believed deep down that if I could get the ‘God thing’ straight, it would be so much easier to figure out who I was.
While in a conversation on the subject with one of my dearest friends about a year ago, I started to cry and it was like the answer was right there in front of me so clearly. I felt a huge relief wash over me as I knew that I now knew.
So what did I now know? For me personally, I feel very comfortable believing there is a Supreme Power, a Higher Power, something ‘out there’. However, I don’t believe that the God out there is in any way separate from the divine within me. I am a child of God and I love to be curled up, childlike in my innocence, in the loving arms of this Universe, feeling supported, protected, guided and directed. I have every quality of God of course, I was made in God’s image, and my job is to reflect those qualities ever bigger and always grander.
I like knowing that God watches over me, cares about me and loves me. I often ask God for a spiritual hug, an even greater sense of knowing that I am loved and cherished. Subsequently, I will feel the enveloping sense of peace that close relationship brings in every aspect of my life.
I talk to God like I would my best friend. I express my hurt and disappointment when something doesn’t work out the way I thought and then tell God I trust it’s all perfect and something better is coming. I celebrate my victories believing they are shared with my entire celestial family of angels, guides and God. I tell God how beautiful he is every morning when I get up and see the amazing forest I live beside. My prayer every day in the shower starts with, ‘Good morning God. I don’t know
what you have planned for me today but I know it’s good. I’m excited to see what you have in store for me.’ And I will often say to the CEO of my business, ‘God, I don’t know what to do here, but I know you do, so please give me the answers.’
Am I God or is God ‘out there’ now feels like the unanswerable question because I can see it both ways. I am everything that God is, in miniature. If God is love, I am surely that. If God is justice, so am I. If God is goodness, count me in. But I also choose to believe there is a Higher Power that is loving and kind, just and good. It brings me a deep sense of peace knowing I am loved and cared for. I want a heavenly Presence to confide in. It’s working for me. I am at peace. I now know who I am.
What’s working for you? I hope you have found it for yourself.
Blessings,
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Jan Janzen is a non-denominational minister, author and entrepreneur. Her book Devil with a Briefcase: 101 Success Secrets for the Spiritual Entrepreneur along with her CD series for the Spiritual Entrepreneur and other resources for the entrepreneur with ethics are available at
www.spiritualentrepreneurinfo.com. For more information on Jan’s ministry and her support of microfinance projects around the world, please visit www.janjanzenministries.com
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